No one rules the world, no one rules my life.

STC is Back!

Memories flashed back as Kuai Lan sent me these pics... Those were the days... Life as a trainee is the best ever! Mdm Phua, the bestest course leader ever... Mdm Lee, the babelicious officer, not forgeting Raymond the Slacker and Rangit the Blackie... Love u guys!

STC RuleZ: Threesome in Action! Haha, we looked like transexuals after removing the camou on our faces... So might as well...

STC RuleZ: Here come's the rapist! God damn Jimmy! Not rescuing us... Sob sob...

STC RuleZ: Back to the field! From top left: Vincent, my gay buddy, Eugene, brothers hand in hand, Me, WenChuan, a self-brag kawaii boy, Alvin, just someone (Dub!)... Btm left: Yiping, west-sider ruleZ, Kuai Lan, my counsellor, Zen, e No.1 Chatter cum gals cruising buddy, Jimmy JimZ, my singing mate, CheeZ, my clubbing buddy and Arif f**king him! Opps!

Childhood Memories

A caffeine addict walked along the pathway,

To the usual coffeeshop,

To get his fav cuppa...

He took a glance of his neighbourhood,

The trees became shorter over the years;

Thou the haggard old lift is still functioning...

From far, he saw this cheerful looking Indian lean lad,

His black face resemblances someone,

In the addict's childhood...

The Indian boy was playing happily at the playground,

So was the addict,

And many other kids...

The Indian boy was running happily,

His healthy image and dark skin,

Contrast with the addict's bubbly face and fairness...

20 years later,

Right before my eyes,

The Indian boy lost a leg...

He saw me and gave me a smile,

I looked back and return him with a nod,

We didn't talked as I by-passed him...

I felt a tingle in my heart,

Wondering,

What've happen to him?

Though it was a just a passer-by,

Or a childhood playmate,

This lad motivated me somehow...

To live happily,

Without regrets,

And make full use of my life...

~ Shawn Tay ~

My Face Analysis

I was bored to death as I read a friend's blog... And saw this face analyzer thingy... Do decided to have a try... I used to two different photos and had two different results... DuB... Anyway I decided to take a average of the two... The overall analysis is somehow right bah!

Face Analysis: The 1st Analysis

Face Analysis: The 2nd Analysis

Overall Analysis:

Intelligene: 6.o5 (Average Intelligence)
Risk: 6.45 (High Risk)
Ambition: 6.0 (High Ambition)
Gay Factor: 2.1 (Low Gay Factor)
Honor: 6.05 (High Honor)
Politeness: 3.95 (Low Politeness)
Income: 6.95 ($80,000?!)
Sociability: 6.6 (Average Sociability)
Promiscuity: 4.2 (Low Promiscuity)
Celebrity Matches: Ricky Martin & Ho Chi Minh

Guess it wasn't very accurate... But the celeb match of Ricky Martin amused me somehow! Haha.. The average intelligence and super ambitious seems right... But I always thought I was polite and promiscuous?! Sociability and dare to risk somehow fits the bill... Hee! If my botak look (1st Analysis) can earn more money and the same profile as Ricky Martin, I don't mind going bald!! Haha... Try yours at http://www.faceanalyzer.com ...

Fiona Departure: A group photo before Fiona left...

A Year After Graduating From Poly...

Yesterday, WeiHao starts his first day of school at NTU. And poly students continue their 3 years course in their respective polytechnic. One year ago, my poly life came to a full stop... After attending the graduation ceremony at the new convention centre, I know, I will be missing this place...

1. Problem Boy

Still remember those dayz when Doc Teo called my parents, saying I'm a problematic boy. Yah, I used vulgarities during her lessons (thanks to Hasan) and always late for her tutorials. And not forgeting those conflicts I faced with Mrs Tang, who threatened to fail GuoLiang and I. As we only started to write our Final Year Report 3 days before deadline. It wasn't that bad actually. Remembering Doc Teo bid me goodbye before she left for Australia and Mrs Tang giving me 'A's in FYP and Industrial Attachment.

2. My First Warning Letter

Walking on NP Orhard Road, a warren spotted me in berms, slippers and unusual hair colour. I was ordered to show him my student card, and a warning letter came to me days later. And to add things onto the fire, I was 4 times extremely late on Doc Teo's lessons = 2 times absence for her classes, she sent a warning letter to me too... Mishaps usually came in a row of three, I skipped enough PE lessons to receive the third warning letter from my swimming coach, even though I was really too busy with GL stuffs... 3 Warning letters in a day?! Cool isn't it? =)

3. An Ordinary Day in School

If yesterday were my first day of school, lecture at 0800, I would have woke up at 0715, take a look at the clock... Gave MeiHua a call before heading back to the bed. 0745, MeiHua would called back, saying she had hailed a taxi. By that time, I would have jumped out of my bed, brushed my teeth, hecked care my messy and standing up hairs, put on a camp t-shirt and tugged into a pair of jeans... Rushed down the stairs by 0755, only to see MeiHua just in time for my lateness... 0815, as usual, 15 mins late, we entered the lecture room...

4. Some Favourite Hangouts

Canteen 4's Japanese cursine, Western Food Delights were my all time favorites after Chemistry Lab sessions. Aquaculture Lab, MeiHua's and Fiona's FYP labbie were the places I loved to hang out at during Year 3. Out of no choice, I frequented Block 34, Level 6, Mrs Tang's Office the most... Final Year Project, internal conflicts with Kat's group and Doc Lee were usually the main causes!

5. New Chapter of Life...

YEP, camp days, GL meetings,
Added chapters to my poly life story.
Overseas trips, industrial attachment,
Added fond memories to it...
KokGuan, MeiHua, Kris, Audrey,

Darren, Aloy, SiewLing, Fiona

And many others, Lots to mention...
Became essentials of my social life...
Together, they closed a chapter of my life...
And together, they opened another chapter of it...
They were the best gifts I recieved from poly... ...

Shawn Tay

"Fiona Purple"

Most working adults, students, children are having their Monday Blues...
I'm not having one, I'm having "Fiona Purple"...
I'm missing Fiona so much, and purple is her fav colour =(

Someone said, "You will only feel the importance of a person after his absence!"
I couldn't do anything but nodded my head to agree with it.
Totally!

I have no feeling on friday itself,
I'm controlling myself to be happy...
Remembering she's leaving for a good reason,
I got no choice but to say goodbye...

Before she left, she said, "Find a good girl and get marry off!"
Fiona, I will...
And now I replied, "Find a good dude and be happy!"
Fiona, good luck...

Mind or Don't Mind?

Yesterday, I went out with Junyu and GuoLiang.
We planned to have dinner at Fish & Co. before heading for a movie.
Out of all sudden, in the middle of our dinner session,
GuoLiang asked, "Do you mind having movie with us and not with e gal?"
I was stunned but replied, "I don't mind."

Into the movie, during the advertisement session,
Out of no where, perhaps due to boredom,
Junyu asked, "If she appears with another guy and sits right besides you, will you mind?"
I was irritated but replied, "I don't mind."

- End of Saturday -

Today, I went out with some other friends.

XXX XXX, a buddy of mine joined us.

I was happy.

As we had our drinks in a drink stall at Fareast Plaza,

XXX XXX said he had asked e gal to join him for an event.

XXXX looked at me with the wierdest facial expression.

I interpreted his meaning and replied, "I don't mind."

As we walked our way to the ATM,

XXXX wasn't satisfied with the answer, and XXXXX joined him.

XXXXX tapped on my shoulder and asked, "You really don't mind? I thought u will mind!"

I was amused and replied, "I really don't mind."

Guess XXX XXX heard our whisphering,

He came onto me, and said, "Don't worry, you know me, she's not my type! And u know my story?!"

I said, "I understand, anyway I shouldn't have mind! She's not mine!"

If she's really mine, I most probably would still replied, "I don't mind."

XXXX was disappointed with the answer.

XXXXX don't believed what I said.

But deep insides me,

I really don't mind.

As we went our separate ways,

XXXXX was very concerned.

She called me right after I left,

And she demanded, "Tell me the truth, do you mind?"

I was irritated,

I was annoyed.

I replied, "I really don't mind. Do you want me to say I mind, then you will be happy?!"

She said sorry.

She asked, "Why I don't mind?"

Out of rage, I replied, "Why should I mind? Anyway, she and XXX XXX are good friends!"

She didn't gave up and asked, "If it wasn't XXX XXX, will you mind? Or if she and XXX XXX got together, will you mind?"

Out of real anger, I replied, "Why should I mind? I will be happy for them if that's the case!"

Putting down e phone,

I was contradicted by their asking.

Do I really don't mind?

Or am I just forcing myself not to mind?

I remembered what KL said.

"You shouldn't let someone who doesn't belongs to you drag on your life!"

I smiled to myself, and smsed XXXXX.

I said, "Anyway, I don't have the right to mind, do I?"

XXXXX replied immediately.

She said, "Sorry for making you feel so, but I really hope you can untie the knot soon!"

I smiled but didn't reply back... I was thinking...

I guessed I have already untied the knot in my heart...

- End of Sunday -

To XXX XXX,

Enjoy the event, is good you asked her... She's a beautiful girl to show others! =) And best wishes for your own love life... Is time to forget... Good luck!

To GuoLiang and Junyu,

Thanks for ur rubbish and nonsense! If I'm your joker, I'm happy to be one! Provided you guys pay me entertainment fees...

To XXXXX and XXXX,

Thanks for your over concern. I'm not in love now. If I am, you will be the first to know, alright?! Friends 4 Ever!

To e gal,

Enjoy the event and take good care of yourself! Is getting hotter these days, drink more water! We will be good friends one day... And cheer up! I sort of know your story too... =) I hope this doesn't make you irritated! :P

- End of Messages -

I guess this is a stupid blog entry... But this stupid story really happens to me... Haha! Mind? Don't mind? I guess I have better self control these days... I'm not a paranoid individual, I suppose?

My Folks

I took a clear look at my parents as they walked nearer and nearer to me... Hand in hand... They are still deeply in love... They had went through alot, and the wrinkles on their foreheads have proven it... Indeed, they have aged...

My sudden thought was, "Gosh! I don't want to lose them!" Haha, I know I sounded silly... But I really wish that they will be in the pink of their health as they enjoy their retirement years... They are getting cuter as the black hairs started to turn white on Daddy's head, while Mummy kept asking me to pluck hers away... =)

Back home, I took out the old photo albums kept well in a black cupboard located at the living room... My mind wondered as I flipped through the old photos... I saw myself in childhood years, brother with his big thick specs, sister in her "out of fashion" dresses, as well as mum as she turned from a maiden to an auntie (opps!)... But I seldom saw dad... The number of times he appeared in the photographs were like 1 in every 30?!

I asked him, "Dad, you don't love phototaking sessions, do you?"... He gave a great smile as he replied,"Of course not! I do love posting in front of a camera, but I prefer taking photos of u people in happy moments! That's what a Daddy does!" =) I know my old man is a mushy one, but I'm usually touched by what he said (not forgetting to mention e goosebumps which are popping out!), this time round is not exceptional...

I will definetely want to become a daddy like mine one day! Love my wife and dote my children... Buy nice snacks for my children after work... Help my wife to clean the house daily... Play soccer with the boys, and dolls with the girls... And of course, take nice photos of them all... =) Haha, this is going to be too far ahead... I probably will take another ten or fifteen more years for this to happen... As for now, I'm going to take over my dad's job as the "photographer" and enjoy capturing happy moments of my folks... I'm going to take as many photos of them as possible...

A Counselling Session

Drinking a bottle of Yakult, I lay on my bed as I begin with this new entry, trying to digest the food I ate this morning before taking a nap...

Today I woke up VERY early... Aloysius called me at 7.11am, followed by Fiona at 7.37am and MeiHua at 7.39am... Argrhhh, I dragged myself to the bathroom for a wash up, and headed right to Jurong to meet them before going Tiong Bahru Market for breakfast... As usual I was late :-p

SiewLing met up with us as we chatted our way to the market... We had our first round that includes of "sui kueh", "siew mai", "chee cheong fun", "yam cake", fried carrot cake, soya bean milk, "black white" and water chestnut drink... Audrey and PohLian joined us thereafter as we headed for our second round... This time round, we had "lor mee", "you tiao", braised duck rice, "beancurd" on our list... Hee.. Anyway this entry wasn't about the breakfast... Is actually a thank you message for Kuai Lan (his real name is Kok Leong though), a great dude I knew thru army...

I'm always bothered with stuffs... E usual ones... Conflicts with brother, army politics, and love problem... I told him one by one the problems that I'm been living with these days and I was sort of surprised by his comments and suggestions, some of e comments that he gave was really really useful... Esp the latter... About love... He helped me to remove a stubborn "strain" that I left on my heart almost a year ago... I could not said she is totally gone now... But at least now, I'm putting in extra effort to remove her from my thoughts and mind... He told me,"U can't just let someone who does not belong to you drag on ur life!"

Yah, he scolded me, typical "kuai lan"! :-( True... She doesn't belongs to me, so why drag on?! Life gonna continues as it is... There's no point escaping from her, or trying to get her out of my social life... She's one hell a good friend to keep, and definetely someone with good characters... That's why I used to fall in love with her mah!? Dub dub... BUT, we weren't meant for one another... that's why she rejected me, isnt it?! But she still a friend , a good friend.... :) So I'm keeping her... In another form... Thanks KL! It was really a turning point for me after chatting with u yesterday... And now his words had became my MSN nick, to remind myself SHE'S NOT MINE (!) whenever I think about her again... Wish me luck! :P

A Short Getaway

Yesterday,I booked out from camp at about 7 something in the evening unhappily... I knew that's it! My friday had been wasted... HaiZ! At first, I thought of meeting Fiona to return her some things, but blur me forgot to bring it along... HaiZ! In the end, I spent my friday having a feast at CCK coffeshop with Zen... We had "Fried Chay Kuey", "Kuey Chap", "Wu Xiang" and many others... I ended up with a big stomach (it wasn't really small in e first place :p) and was really full... Next, we spent the whole night playing pool, and as usual, cruising for gals (usually is him la, I only give opinions)...

Saturday began with calling MeiHua from 7.00am, 8.ooam, 9, 10... We were supposed to meet at 9.00am, but we ended up meeting at 1115.... Haha, the late king and queen united! And the queen's boyfriend was along... We had a nice chat before we stopped at City Hall while Ric continued his way to Bedok... We met up with Kris thereafter, followed by a swim at Suntec...

It was a sunny afternoon! And we did enjoyed the "sweat out" session... My nose was burnt (!) as a result... We had our lunch and chit chat session at "The Coffee Club" located at Millenia Walk before I met up with my parents for a short Getaway at Malaysia...

I was surprised when I met up with them as they bought along four uncles and two aunties... Gosh! I doubt I would enjoy the getaway... Communication Barrier! Haha, but I was quite wrong... One of these uncles was nicknamed as "fox" in hokkien, coz he really looked like a fox! He chatted with me about World's Geography and History... I was astonished by his knowlege about the world though he didn't even entered secondary school... I enjoyed talking with him... That were another uncle who kept asking me to drink beer even though my father don't allowed... He told my father a boy would be useless if he can't drink! Soooo, I ended up becoming his drinking buddy for the night... Haha...

The dinner costs us RM241.5 (approximately $120), which meant it costs about $14 per person (there were 9 of us)... It was definetely worthwhile cause the dinner includes of Cereal Prawns, Black Pepper Crabs, King of Pork Ribs, Clams in special made sauce, Claypot Otah, Potato leaves in Sambal Chilli, Kang Kong in sambal chilli, Bittergourd with Fishhead (I skipped that, though e old ones loved it!) and half a dozen of beers... It was really CHEAP!! We walked around leisurely before heading back to Singapore... It was a nice short getaway... =)

A Short Getaway: Dub dub... Is morning... Dressed up before meeting Kris and Hua for a swim... I hate morning, but I love this pic... Looks slimmer! =P

A Short Getaway: Mummy and I playing with the camera thru the traffic jam to Malaysia...

A Short Getaway: We ended up here and the RM26/KG crabs turn us on... Sooooo here we go!!

A Short Getaway: As the uncles and aunties were busily talking away, waiting for the food, I took my camera and had some shots... I love the red spot on this photo...

A Short Getaway: A photo of Tiger Prawns before they ended up as a delicacy - Cereal Prawns! Yum Yum!

A Short Getaway: I love fishes... But they ended up in my mouth... =)

A Short Getaway: What to do when u are travelling back from Malaysia and there was a HUGE jam? Take some self pics!! Haha...

A Short Getaway: Bye Bye Malaysia! Life continues as it is... Is Monday soon... =(

Saturday = Sleeping Marathon

TIMETABLE for 2nd JULY 2005

0600 - 0700: Wash up, getting ready for driving lesson.
0700 - 0830: Driving Lesson in Progress
0830 - 1200: Breakfast with parents at Bedok Central
1200 - 1300: Bathing Session
1300 - 1700: SLEEPING TIME
1700 - 1705: Toilet Break 1
1705 - 2000: SLEEPING TIME
2000 - 2010: Toilet Break 2 (drank 2 cups of water)
2010 - 2230: SLEEPING TIME
2230 - 2300: Dinner with eyes closed...
2300 - 0000: Blog Reading and Writing Session

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A spa session became a buffet feast...

I was supposed to meet Junyu, WeiHao and GuoLiang on Sat for our first spa session together... However, pathetic Junyu was suddenly arrowed for guard duty so we gonna changed the outing to friday instead... Weihao suggested a mega 3-in-1 buffet dinner in a ulu hotel (I couldn't even rem the name) which served western cursine, easten delicacies and steamboat... Sounds Cool!! So let's go!!

It turned out to be quite a disappointment as the ambience of the hotel wasn't as good as what we expected... Even though the food was yummy, the customer service was much below standard... The lucky thing was that the hotel served white wine for free... And I drank four glasses of it!!! I self-bragged that my "alcohol resistance" was much better then the rest, due to trainings thru clubbing and parties... However I got a bit high with the 13.5% alcohol content white wine... Jun was worst, he was allergied with wine and got rashes all over his body... And he started to laugh unusually... Smart alecs WeiHao and GuoLiang were clever enough to give the wine a miss!

After that, we decided to have a "short" walk to disgest the food... So we walked all the way from Bukit Timah Road, to Newton Circus (we saw Candy from Project Superstar), to Orhcard (we saw Xia Xue, the No.1 blog writer)... My initial thought was to go ChinaBlack to visit Fiona and cliques, but my dearest Junyu forgot to bring his IC, so we gonna to give it a miss! Sorry Fiona! We ended up having drinks in a cafe at cinesure leisure... Where we talked about many many stuffs... From friendship to BGR, from religion to SAF... It was overall a nice outing with the guys...

Some Interesting Stuffs During e Outing:

1. GuoLiang gave me a "ribs looked alike" kind of meat to eat... I thought it was pork meat or some similiar stuffs... So I ate and gave him some comments... Then he told me it was OXTAIL!! TAIL!! I was like WTF?! He deserved some beatings thereafter...

2. Junyu was some sort of high as we walked from Newton to Orchard. He said we were at Aljunied and commented that the buildings, mainly hotels and commercial estates looked strange.... Aljunied in Newton? Strange Bulidings? He was a "gonecase"!!

3. In the middle of the night, WeiHao got emotional and he said that, "I'm so touched that we are still maintaining our friendship for so many years...!" I was touched and agreed with him, but my goosebumps can't helped but kept popping out!

4. While WeiHao was on the phone, Junyu, GuoLiang and I were like mad people, talking dramatically in "professional" English, shouting a "girl's name" as we walked from Wisma Atria to Takashimaya! If some police were nearby, we probably ended up in Woodbridge!

MeiHua once told me that a person's life journey was just like taking and alighting from buses... Some of the passengers alighted before you, just like some friends who entered your life and left... Leaving behind some memories, regardless of good and bad... There could be some others, who sticked to you through the whole bus journey, just like buddies who sticked with you for years... Even though they might alight and change buses for awhile, that's because they got their missions and goals to accomplish, they would still ended up in the same bus with you thereafter... I believed this was what the director of the movie, "2046" wanted to convey to his audiences...

After so many years together, these guys became essentials in my life... Junyu, my lifelong phone chatter... We can chat from anything to nothing and still chat! My life definetely be dull without him around... GuoLiang, a great dude who I enjoyed spending my days with... From high class cafes to posh restaurants, from spa sessions to over-budget travellings, I won't enjoy myself without him... Last but not least, WeiHao, who I shared problems, worries, as well as philosophy of life with... I probably won't survived without his solutions to my problems, his encouragements to my worries, and vice versa... Love u guys!