Friday, August 26, 2005

The Remaining Four Months...

Seems like e Year 2005 will be ending pretty soon... Come to think about it, I completed almost nothing this year...

Hope by the end of the year, I would have obtained or started the following(s):

1. Obtain my Car Licence (3rd OCt 2005!!!)

2. Start learning how to drive a yatch thereafter (Bro-In-Law thought of buying one, but no driver - if I get one, then my fishing trips will never end, hiak hiak)

3. Have a short holiday to a sea resort / spa resort (at least 3D2N)

4. Lost weight *_* (I always ate too much... DuB!)

5. Go for at least ONE spa sessions with GuoLiang and guys

Shawn Tay - Pinning up his little hopes for the remaining 4 months...

Sunday, August 21, 2005

A Conversation Between 2 Lost fellows

I wasn't so sure months before... I mean I know I'm giving Biology a miss and hope to start business... But who can I find to support my ideas? MeiHua? I don't want to affect her life if she's seeking Science... Darren? He still got his family business... My sec friends, who I'm most comfortable with, doesn't seems interested... However, I sort of confirmed it today... A conversation that leads to major changes to my life and Hua's... Together, we are now embarking on our journey to the wildest dream we have... Mark my words: We are making it BIG one day!

M: Hmmm... What are your plans? I mean since you are not pursuing Science. Hehe.

S: I left with two options... Either study business or totally get out of education. Be an instructor.. Then my wildest dream is to set up cafe with you guys.. But it must be a subline first...Slowly.. Gradually.. I hope to proceed from there...

M: I had e same wildest dream as u. Hehe! Hehe.

S: We try our best to reach e dream, shall we? As for e years in between... We can seek diff paths.. But our dream remains.. :-) Overseas is so far.. So "worthless"!

M: Ya... I agree... We must hold on to our dream k... Already lost a chance to do project with you... N staying overseas with you... I wish this dream can be a success!

S: No.. We are doing a big project together right now.. E biggest.. And is gonna be a success.. We didn't give up on overseas.. Just that.. We got got better choice now..

M: Yes! Indeed we are!!! We have great plans ahead... :-P

S: Yah.. I wasn't so sure before this.. Cause I dun want to spoilt your own plans.. But now I'm sort of confirm le.. Cause u seems interested.. We are having a major change in our life.. From science to business.. Is a BIG change.. But with you around... I've no worries.. Note this: I'm going to spend countless sleepless nights with you again.. For our brainstorming and project.. No bad project partners this time round.. But few good ones..

M: I'm looking forward!... Thinking of those sleepless nites... Endless brainstorming... Ultimate laughter... I'm looking at those companions... Which are so precious to me... :-P

S: Yah.. Since we are good partners.. Why spilt? We are meant to be the best project partners.. Doing things together is our talent! So be it! Just do it... I don't want e third year project thingy to reappear again... No hidden secrets.. Let's share it all out.. We need to come out a plan slowly soon..

M: Me too... I won't want that to happen again... Having a buddy as my best friend my partner... I won't just miss it! :-P Yeah... Come out with a plan slowly... N in e meanwhile we shall see e market. Hehe.

S: :-) We must just hold on this time.. No more shakes... We got a year to plan a proposal.. Still got bank loan and such.. Slowly.. Is a no deadline assignment..

M: Yes we will... It's a contract we signed for life willingly... N I'm glad we are in! Hehe.

S: Yah... We got Darren joining us... A few good ones make it successful.. I felt so relieve now, you know? Wasn't so sure what I want to do.. Only know I'm giving biology a miss.. But now.. I ask and you share.. We are doing it together.. Is for our own good... Not me to you, you to me kind of thing. Haha... We care too much about one another.. That's why there are always disappointments.. Even though turn out our minds are similiar..

M: Hehe... It's a special kind of bond n with alot of fates... :-P

S: Haha.. Yesh! Good Night as for now.. Mark my words: We are making it BIG one day!

M: Mark my words too... We are in for sure! Nite Nite butt. :-P

We are in for sure, and making it big one day... After struggling for months, I finally can vividly see where am I in five years time... Believing that lots of young adults are still struggling about what they seek in the future... I'm glad that I'm stepping out for a new phase of life... Wish us luck!


New Stuff on Wishlist: Hmmm, sounds like a great buy! $75 for five items... With this, man can clean, scrub, shave, restore and condition for just 5mins! A good choice for a lazy bum like me! (*Evil Grins* for having a reason to get it!) Will be part of my toiletries by the end of the month... Hiak hiak =P Prediction: Nags from Mother coming soon too!


An Intersting Pic: Hee, came upon this poster... Love their facial expressions.. Haha! Every man needs Gatsby! Not babies!

Friday, August 19, 2005

A SaD LoVe StOrY...

Red roses were her favorites, her name was also Rose. And every year her husband sent them, tied with pretty bows. The year he died, the roses were delivered to her door. The card said, "Be my Valentine," like all the years before.

Each year he sent her roses, and the note would always say, "I love you even more this year, than last year on this day." "My love for you will always grow, with every passing year." She knew this was the last time that the roses would appear.

She thought, he ordered roses in advance before this day. Her loving husband did not know, that he would pass away. He always liked to do things early, way before the time. Then, if he got too busy, everything would work out fine.

She trimmed the stems, and placed them in a very special vase. Then, sat the vase beside the portrait of his smiling face. She would sit for hours, in her husband's favorite chair. While staring at his picture, and the roses sitting there.

A year went by, and it was hard to live without her mate. With loneliness and solitude, that had become her fate. Then, the very hour, as on Valentines before, The doorbell rang, and there were roses, sitting by her door.

She brought the roses in, and then just looked at them in shock. Then, went to get the telephone, to call the florist shop. The owner answered, and she asked him, if he would explain, "Why would someone do this to her, causing her such pain? "

I know your husband passed away, more than a year ago, "The owner said, "I knew you'd call, and you would want to know." "The flowers you received today, were paid for in advance.""Your husband always planned ahead, he left nothing to chance."

"There is a standing order, that I have on file down here, And he has paid, well in advance, you'll get them every year. There also is another thing, that I think you should know, He wrote a special little card... he did this years ago."

"Then, should ever, I find out that he's no longer here, That's the card... that should be sent, to you the following year." She thanked him and hung up the phone, her tears now flowing hard. Her fingers shaking, as she slowly reached to get the card.

Inside the card, she saw that he had written her a note. Then, as she stared in total silence, this is what he wrote...

Hello my love, I know it's been a year since I've been gone, I hope it hasn't been too hard for you to overcome." "I know it must be lonely, and the pain is very real... For if it was the other way, I know how I would feel. The love we shared made everything so beautiful in life. I loved you more than words can say, you were the perfect wife. You were my friend and lover, you fulfilled my every need. I know it's only been a year, but please try not to grieve. I want you to be happy, even when you shed your tears. That is why the roses will be sent to you for years. When you get these roses, think of all the happiness, That we had together, and how both of us were blessed. I have always loved you and I know I always will. But, my love, you must go on, you have some living still. Please... try to find happiness, while living out your days. I know it is not easy, but I hope you find some ways. The roses will come every year, and they will only stop, When your door's not answered, when the florist stops to knock... He will come five times that day, in case you have gone out. But after his last visit, he will know without a doubt,To take the roses to the place, where I've instructed him,And place the roses where we are, together once again...

What a sweet guy! What a sad story! Love is not about physically together... Is about the bonding of the hearts and souls...

A Busy OFF day...

Gotta a super long weekend... OFFs on thursday, friday and coming monday... Did a couple of things today... Is a fruitful OFF day...

Went for my driving lesson in the morning... Well, I wasn't a good driver.. That's explained why I still haven got the license till now... =P But I did stopped for seven months in between la... Army to blame of course...

Since it's e fifteenth of the Seventh Month, decided to go to the temple near Bugis to pray... I wasn't e superstitious sort, but I'm really down with luck these days! So might as well... Hope my wishes will come true...

Shoppping followed thereafter... Haha! I just can't resist the tempatation of giving Topshop and P.O.A a visit since I'm oreodi at Bugis Junction... I've no excuse for the hour spent at Raffles City Shopping Centre thou... But no tees nor jeans appealed to me... =(

Promised to give Hua a visit at NTU... And finally I did! And I saw the prof le! He wasn't that bad looking leh... Spent hours with her in the cafe... Talking about the future... We came to no conclusion...

Went Jurong Point, and bought Ocean's Album... Simply loves his voice...

*Pondering*

Should I go clubbing with Junyu and guys tonight? Bit tired...

Is Darren's outing still on? No news from him...

Am I too petty on the call with Zen? Told him not to call so often! But my phone bill was $200 plus, dunno how to deal with it! The main culprits were him and camp!

I don't want to spoilt my friday night though...

Monday, August 15, 2005

To: Eugene & a brother

When you love someone, And you love them with your heart, It never disappears... When you're apart, And when you love someone, And you've done all you can do, You set them free... And if that love was true.... When you love someone... It will all come back to you... - Forget Paris


Pardon me if they doesn't... Then, is time to continue ur life, find another, or rather discover the real one... I reckoned it wasn't a easy thing to do... Since it've been years for u both... But, believe me... U can do it... Wish u guys luck.. Better still, they return to you people, but what are the chances? Only you know yourself...

I loved her so much, and talked about her so much, and thought about her so much. It was like she lived inside of me. Like she had taken possession of my soul or something. And then one day... I got over her.


U guys can make it too! Eugene, I hope there will be no "I miss your flowing black hair, your dimples when you smiled at me, the curve of your lips, the light in your eyes when you laughed!" as ur msn nick anymore... And to the brother who I guessed u don't want to be named... Seek a passion, a dream for urself... Not for that someone who said things are different now... She told u that... And she meant it...

Shawn Tay - Walking out from the door...

Saturday, August 13, 2005

Small Gatherings, Happy Moments

I saw them... Not all turned up, but enough for me to smile for the day... A nice short friday gathering... AND a pleasurable high tea session today...

Working 16 hours per day, for a week of four days (minus National Day), I was totally exhausted... But thinking of visiting Kuai Lan with the rest, motivated me to finish up the workload...

I left the camp early on friday... Being a prima donna, I took a cab home, had a quick shower before taking a forty winks... I got to replenish my energy bar for the night...

At 1930, I took a bus to Habour Front, followed by NE train to Potong Pasir... The whole journey took me one and a half hour!! I was the last to arrive... Immediately, I joined them for the the feast and added comments to the conversation... When guys got together, kinky stuffs and sex jokes became essentials for the night... Hee

Among them all, though all are equally important, Eugene and I shared an affinity... Maybe because we are both CQs of infantry units... Maybe becoz, we sat beside one another during classes in STC... Or maybe simply becoz we got many things in common, we share secrets... Secrets about life, about love and friends... I'm amazed by how he can stay his happy go lucky self, though deep inside his heart, is filled with agony and sorrow, caused by that special someone who hurted him so much... I hope he can forget her soon... As for me, I'm enjoying "singlehood" (Polytechnic time's state of mind: Don't get tied down! Seek a life!" )... Hee, wish him luck... I believed he can make it...

Today was another interesting outing wih WeiHao, Junyu and GuoLiang... We went for lunch at Thai Express, Holland Village... Followed by a chill out session at Coffee Club Express... It was a lovely afternoon, with a happy sun soaring up high... We did our usual updates about our lives... About army, studies, family, friends... WeiHao was tired with Uni life, while the three of us were envied, wishing to go back to studies... It was a short but happy gathering...

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Feelings After a Fireworks Show...

1. Blog Reading...
I saw Fiona's blog, and saw the pic...
I rem that very day,
And the walk to Chinatown...
It was real fun!
I read Aloysius's blog too...
A happy NSF waiting for his ORD,
One year for you,
A year and four months for me,
But God knows what we gonna do thereafter?

2. Same Day Last Year...
I went to see fireworks twice last year,
Once on National Day,
Another during the Fireworks Week.
I was a poly grad then...
Feeling souless and helpless,
As I waited anxiously for my enlistment date!
20th Oct 2004, the day I entered regimental life...
This year, I saw it again,
I still feel souless but no longer helpless,
Army took away my soul,
But at least I know,
I'm getting nearer and nearer to ORD...

3. Somewhere Next Year...
Somewhere here next year,
I would be a happy man,
My soul would be back,
As I ORD on 19th Dec 2006!
But...
What would be my next stop in life?
Overseas? Local Uni? Working?
I'm still figuring it out...
I got more then a year to think...
But...
Can I come to a conclusion then?
Or will I be a useless bastard with no motivation in life?
Hmmmm,
I got more then a year to think...

4. Maybe, Maybe, Maybe...
Maybe I will take up Degree in Business Studies,
Followed by MBA,
And make a success in the business world...
Or maybe I will go Aust, take a Degree in Biological Sciences,
Get a lab job,
And spent the rest my life with bacteria and cells...
Or maybe I will learnt and mastered some water sports,
Be it diving, wakeboarding or yatch driving,
Seek a professionalism,
And spent my days with Sun, Water and the beaches...
It's too dreamy...

Sunday, August 07, 2005

A Short Break Before Heading Back Camp...*Evil Grins*

Saturday Duty! No Friday Night Outing! Goddamn! What kind of life am I seeking?! Anyway, I smuggled out on Friday for a short clubbing session, hee hee…

When I saw the August Duty Forecast, I gnashed my teeth! It reads:


COS DUTY PERSONNEL
3SG TAY WEI SIANG
6th August 2005, Saturday

What the f**k! Is a Saturday! Gosh, it meant that I cannot book out on Friday, and only can leave camp on Sunday morning (and got to book in by sun night)… Damn! My weekend plan had “gone with the wind”!

Anyway, I decided to call my CSM on Friday, and asked him whether can I book out that night and return to the camp the next morning… I got to visit a friend at the hospital… And he did, unwillingly… Hee

So I called Zen up, telling him that I’ll be meeting him and the rest to see Kuai Lan, who had went through a leg operation… However, he told me that Eugene and CheekZ CMI, so we got to postpone it! HaiZ, I went home instead… thinking about what to do next…

Fortuitously, Junyu called and asked me to go clubbing with him… And I did… Don’t want to waste my Friday night… WeiHao was at chalet and GuoLiang was on duty, so it was just the two of US! We still went though… Clubbing is our imbecilic way of releasing stresses and frustrations from the camp!!

We went ChinaBlack, the songs played were good, though the crowd was disappointing…. I concluded that it was in all likelihood due to the opening of MoMo as well as the Hell Gate! Nonetheless, we still enjoyed ourselves…

Not forgetting the babe who was trying to seduce block wood Junyu, who was busily shaking him bums to the momentum of the music! As well as the walking journey to Fareast Plaza to get some alcoholic drinks before heading back (We aren’t professional clubbers, just two cheapos! Haha)! And above all, we got a free ride home, all thanks to brother… This is one of my cheapest clubbing sessions…

I did went back to camp the next day… =( And basically did nothing there… Supposedly, I was to sit inside the office, wait for emergency calls and instructions from the officers… But there was none on Sat, except some meddle stuffs… So I slept and slacked, slept and slacked again and again… Till today morning…

Dad and mum picked me up before heading to Chong Pang for breakfast… And I managed to see Silver at Northpoint… Eeeek, she looks cute! Bubbly, pretty with deep dimples… She looks good without make up, and her little bit of rabbit teeth make her perfect! She wasn’t that big in real person though, around the size of BaoLian?!

Anyway, I doubt she would win! =( Her vocal wasn’t that good as compared with the other two… But she really got the charm wor, not forgetting her pair of electrifying eyes, who electric shocked many! And I’m one of them… Hee… I seem too old for this idol or dream girl thingy hor! Wish her luck bah!

Thursday, August 04, 2005

Blogged just to blog...

Gosh! I wanna scream! Out loud! Army people are making me mad! SAF needs unity? Together as one? Bullshit! Is just like outside... The WORK POLITICS! People pushing faults to one another... And my in charge? I got no comment...

F**k! I wanna yell! I got 2 COS duties and 3 guard commanders duty! Hey! I'm not a PES A or B SGT, who can run like a train, or fucked people upside down... I just a specialist in charge of all the "sai kang"! A commander who works like a storeman! So why no storeman's privilege of hacking care anything, and sleep upstairs during no busy period! God damn! I'm a CQMS with a storeman's mentality... But the workload doesn't seems so!

Yah! I miss life in poly... in bintan... in anywhere but not here... I lost all my motivation towars life! No more the Shawn who enjoys extra GL stuffs.. No more the Shawn who loves challenges! I have changed! Selfish! (Force to do so)! Chao King (To save myself from the extras!)... And many many more... I might not be a good guy back in poly... But I worst now! Felt so useless.. no says in things... no ideas of what's up next..

Damn! Counting on now... that's still 503 days! Should I disrupt this June?! NUS biZ interested me somehow... Aust's BioScience? Is my passion but Bio not my talent? And the future pay is yucky!... How could I support my family being a research tech? My dream: Earn lots and lots... Have good wife.. with a bunch of kids... Well to do... Is such a easy dream, but yet is so afar! Dip in Biotech! Why have I choosen it? (Guess, I will still regret if i didn't!)

HaiZ! Still counting... A min nearer to ORD!...