Off in Due

Offs on Thursday and Friday; every Thurs and Fri to be actual, till 24th July, whereby I start to clear all days of the week. Though so, my disruption is currently under pending, coz as said, I wasn't allowed to change course when my disruption has already been approved. -_-" I dun think see the point since it's just a change of location while the duration, course commences, area of studies are exactly the same. Phew, and I need a week to get a reply from MINDEF, before I can answer back to NUS before the deadline in July. To add on, I have yet to register, get my matriculation number, go for medical examination and sit for any exemption tests - and I know nuts about BIO now. I feel liked dying in a way, a busy July foreseen.

Did nothing much these two days. Managed to grab the latest episode of 東方茱麗葉, sadly just episode four, twelve more to go. Ahhhh, simply in love with 林依晨 in the show. Her image in the show is way better then that in 恶作剧之吻. But still as cute... Hee. The male lead was not bad looking too.

Atlas, after procastinating that I wanna go clubbing for WEEKS, will go tonight since Jun is back, and Hua has a new club to recommend. Tata.

ShawnTay - Pray hard that Germany win tonight... =)

Ending SooN!

As I took an urgent leave to settle some uni stuffs yesterday, I know that my army life is coming to an end soon. On 7th August 2006, I will be surrendering my green IC, and changed it with the pink one, which have been held by MINDEF for two long years. My status will also be changed from a National Slave to a uni student, the one who enters the lecture 15 mins after it commenced, instead of the one who unhappily enters the camp gate on the dot everyday for first parade. Hence, I will also be worrying about projects, tests, examinations, instead of worrying about signing any extras. *Laughs*

I would describe my army life as a cup of cocktail. A depressant, that makes one sick at times, but relax on the other hand. Sorrow, hatred, fcuk, whatever "curse and swear" word one can think of, Singapore guys would have used them to descibe their army life before. Yeah, two years of rules and regulation isn't an easy period to endure and follow, however with the laughters and happiness I gained with my campmates, I'm proud to say that all sorrows and hardships have been neutralized.

The happiest moments I had in army would be the BMT period and the on course training months. Whereby good soulmates are meet, lifelong friends to be kept. Eugene, Vincent, Kok Leong, Zen, Paul, just to name a few, have spiced up my dull green life with other colours.

As I viewed through the photos I took over the two years, I felt really relieved that its ending real soon... But yet, a little worried that the life journey after army would be even more difficult to walk. To put it simple, growing up isn't easy nor that great... Its about decision making, career planning, something that still makes my head twice its size whenever I think about it...

ShawnTay - Life Sciences Product Specialist cum cafe owner?! Let's hope so...

Those Self pics I took over the army years... Narcissim runs in my blood!!!

Those "Got Cai!" Guys I will never forget...

The Bali Trip with Kris, HK and Irene right after BMT...

Dual Photos.

Almost ten years of friendship, The Burgies...

Festive Seasons, BDae Celebrations, Farewell Gatherings attended during the army years...

The Outings, ChitChat Sessions, Activities over the army years...

Blue, BlueD, Blown!!!

Had a tiff with Dad.
He said I was shouting at him;
Which obviously I didn't.
I'm just a loud hailer.
I said I go to camp myself by bus;
He told me not to sit in his car anymore.
FINE. I won't.

.........
At least, not for today.

ShawnTay - Humpph

Great Catch for the Day!

Had Father's Day Dinner at Hung Kang Teochew Resaurant.

The goose meat and yam paste were fanstatic.

While Hua, Ting and boyfriend went prawning;

I went fishing with sis and bro-in-law.

Just 3 minutes as I held the rod,

I got myself a 18 inches Golden Mackeral.

The lucky catch was the Taiwan breed Golden Mackeral;

A last minute catch before we called it a day.

Sis and bro-in-law got themself a Golden Mackeral and a Grouper too.

ShawnTay - I guess my luck is back.

Hell Fun!

Yesterday night was hell fun.
5 peeps, 1 car;
HongKong Cafe for supper,
East Coast Park Carpark G to catch monkey business;
Katong Park for a pee.
I smiled heartily from my heart.

ShawnTay - My mood shall not be affected for the cancellation of dinner on Sunday. =)

A Different Friday

It was the first time I drove to camp. The boots give some problems, for at least I still home in one piece. *Laughs* Had lunch with Hua and KG at NTU, before going to NUS to submit my admission to NUS LIFE SCIENCES. Yep, I beg to be differ, I chose NUS despite hearing its poly unfriendly style of working system. On the way there, while DRIVING, a BIRD SHIT landed on my windscreen. I was laughing non stop while Hua, who was accompanying me, VOMMITTED! *LoL* Decided to buy toto after submission, only to see a TOO LONG QUEQUE. So got no choice but to sought mum for help. Bern called from camp while we're on the way back, telling me that my disruption has been accepted by MINDEF. So now, I'm anxiously waiting to get an official reply from NUS, so that I update MINDEF with my new choice.

ShawnTay - Car has been washed... =(

Another Off Day

Yet, another off day. Did nothing much, just watched 天外飞仙 all the way. The show is touching, and that 林依晨 is still damn cute la!!! Haha..

Weekend spent was simple, yet fun. Went for a HongKong's style breakfast with Sis and Bro-in-Law on Sat morning, whereby Sis used my line to get a new phone thereafter. I predicted I won't have the money to grab a new one any time sooner, might as well let her use my contract lo... Met Hao and GL for a shopping spree in the afternoon. As usual, money becomes the issue, and all I can do is seeing those two guys grabbing nice tops from Zara and TopShop, and I standing outside the changing room giving comments. We had a nice Japanese Dinner thereafter, and headed for a flick, The Nun at Marina Square. Anyway I bought a new game, Sudoku from Times Bookshop, and cracked my brain since then...

Sunday was mainly spent on the new game, and the new show. Oh yah, Jun called from Canada, missed him a little... If he isn't in Canada now, I probably won't be at home today lo... LoL, I guessed we are the only two guys in this world who can talk on the phone for hours, every other night...

ShawnTay - Back to showtime!

Special Someone

We met up thrice, including the one yesterday.
A special meet, once every few months, in her hotel room.
We talked about eveything under the sky;

And the relationship remains pure.
We made a pact that we are special friends forever,
And we really did nothing more then a nice chat of minds and souls.

............... ShawnTay - A groovy kind of love ...............

Saturday At A Rural Area!

Finally, a happy entry...

Enjoyed my weekend. Dragged my dad to take me to Poison Ivy located at an agrotechnology farm near my camp for lunch. Well, the food wasn't fabulous but they were organic, low salt, no msg... But the desserts were awesome!!! Visited the farm thereafter, and happended to bump onto Dad's friend who is working at the farm as a farmer. Afterall, he's dad childhood friend, at this place, fifty years back... Yup, Dad was a Lim Chu Kang boy!!! Haha... Went to wheatgrass farm thereafter, whereby Dad, sis and bro bought wheatgrass drinks while I chose to differ. I bought the catus one which is disgusting!!! I used two hours to finish that 300mL. Visited another high tech farm thereafter and then the vegatable market. It was really an eye opening....

ShawnTay - Sometimes I wonder, does rural life suits me more?!

The Tay's family, left Mum and Bro-in-Law...

Lunch at Poison Ivy, the desserts are fabulous...

Organic Fruits at the farm.

Dad's and Sis's Shots!!!

Nice Flowers at Poison Ivy...

At the Organic Wheatgrass Farm whereby I bought a very disgusting catus drink...

Somewhere in a very neat and organised farm.

Our Last Stop.

I am just not happy!

I have no intentions of making this blog a sadist's blog with tonnes and tonnes of rants and angers. But it seems like I'm just simply not too happy. I am bothered with friends, work, stress - everything.

I don't blamed the buddies for not seeing the difference in me nor sensing my problem and talk to me. They are never the sensitive sorts. But wanting them just for a accompany for a friday night seems more difficult then scoring 100 for a paper. I felt more like their toy at times, instead of a real brother to anyone of them.

Now I wondered, why always I must be the initiative one, the give-in one, the for-their-sakes one when I am just a normal homosapien with my own anger. I chose to take a cab down to Jurong Point for a dinner with them even though I'm damn tired, only to see them late, one by one. I chose be the one paying the cashier using all the small coins they gave, not because I'm faceless, just becoz since they mind, I might as well do it. I chose to give them the opportunities to give in their ideas, as I thought that I always wanted my way, only to discover we are walking round and round the bustling and busy Orchard road for two hours just for a dinner.

To add on, I got a feeling that some of the guys in my workplace don't like me, but I chose to think otherwise. Or perhaps, I'm really too sensitive these days, and started to imagine. Nowadays, I kept hearing ppl badmouthing behind me in the office, in my presence. I don't know why I got such thoughts, but I just get to be a little bit over-imaginative when I sit in the office, somewhere, alone.

I felt so unwanted that I decided to widen social cirle only to discover I'm just a bastard, an actor, a swindle, a bitch, wateva u put it. I'm just not happy.

ShawnTay - Am I dying? Suffering from manic depression?