Blogged just to blog...

Gosh! I wanna scream! Out loud! Army people are making me mad! SAF needs unity? Together as one? Bullshit! Is just like outside... The WORK POLITICS! People pushing faults to one another... And my in charge? I got no comment...

F**k! I wanna yell! I got 2 COS duties and 3 guard commanders duty! Hey! I'm not a PES A or B SGT, who can run like a train, or fucked people upside down... I just a specialist in charge of all the "sai kang"! A commander who works like a storeman! So why no storeman's privilege of hacking care anything, and sleep upstairs during no busy period! God damn! I'm a CQMS with a storeman's mentality... But the workload doesn't seems so!

Yah! I miss life in poly... in bintan... in anywhere but not here... I lost all my motivation towars life! No more the Shawn who enjoys extra GL stuffs.. No more the Shawn who loves challenges! I have changed! Selfish! (Force to do so)! Chao King (To save myself from the extras!)... And many many more... I might not be a good guy back in poly... But I worst now! Felt so useless.. no says in things... no ideas of what's up next..

Damn! Counting on now... that's still 503 days! Should I disrupt this June?! NUS biZ interested me somehow... Aust's BioScience? Is my passion but Bio not my talent? And the future pay is yucky!... How could I support my family being a research tech? My dream: Earn lots and lots... Have good wife.. with a bunch of kids... Well to do... Is such a easy dream, but yet is so afar! Dip in Biotech! Why have I choosen it? (Guess, I will still regret if i didn't!)

HaiZ! Still counting... A min nearer to ORD!...