Back From e Airport

Finally, PoH is gone to Canada with a dream to fufill.
Seeing the crying faces of the dear ones at the airpot,
Always get me into this emotional state.
And hence after countless hours of non-sleep,
With an aid of a cuppa at 2am.
Another at 6, which is a charity from Kris.
I'm typing this irrational but true to my heart entry.

Dearest Kris hit me on the spot just now,
As we sat on the Burger King's seats talking with PoH.
He said Butt and I were the first with the overseas thoughts.
Yeah, but without actions at the end...
Indeed.

Since polytechnic years,
I was the one talking about dreams.
With the passion to study overseas, I set myself the goal.
The goal to study at Melbourne, or even further,
Get me aspired to complete my diploma.
But it seems like as the years dragged,
Without supportive parents anymore,
I decided to stay in my comfort zone,
And complete things within my own boundaries.

PoH is a strong guy,
Independent, determined;
Or even stubborn at times.
But at least the stubborn trait keeps him going,
And he is what he is today.
His first step towards his dreams.
As for me?
Yeah, indeed, NUS life sciences degree sounds cool,
But isn't an overseas experience,
A dream fufilled sounds much more cooler?

I was trying to find an alternative.
As I drove home along the expressway,
After dropping Butt home.
Staying in NUS for four years just isn't what I want.
And it just won't keep me happy.

I hope to get job real soon,
Save some money,
And maybe go for a semester exchange.
To either the States or Vancouver.
But somehow,
The business minor is stopping me,
Cause I prob can't squeeze the modules to other semS.

On the other hand,
Irrationally, illogically, or rather absurdly,
I really feel like quitting school.
NUS isn't that bad, I know.
But is simply not what I want.
I know the consequences I got to bear.
The disappointment of my folks,
Ugly comments of the relatives,
And perhaps,
A fuck up life for the rest of my life.

Or maybe I should try that scholarship Doris got it,
The one that Butt kept mentioning a year ago...

AgrrrH, life isn't that simple actually.

ShawnTay - Somehow, I'm determined.