SELF-ABUSER

Why do I need to restrict myself? Why should I act like a gentleman when I know I'm not? I want to abuse myself, make life to the worst, grab some grass to smoke or some ice for self abusing, fuck up my life, get a bar's job, and be happy and drunk everyday. I have so many restrictions. That are so many things I can't do. I read her blog. She said she don't love herself anymore. She can only feel pain when she choose to love herself. How bout me? I don't even have the power to love myself. Ppl love me, and so I have to live for them. I lived for everyone except myself.

I want to be a piece of shit.

ShawnTay - I'm an asshole la.