Lost To MySelf
I lost the battle, the battle to be a norm. The battle only indicated how emotional unbalanced I am right now, in this current situation. People who knows me inside out, would know that no matter how bad my temper is, at home, or towards close friends, I would never bring out that same spoilt brat attitude out to the workplace. And I mean NEVER. But never failed me.
I lost my temper couple of times, or should I said countless of times in camp these days. I don't blame ppl for venting my anger, but I'm frustrated with the way I'm dealing with the situations. I self-praised that my own character might not be a good one, but at least I know I'm one responsible dumDass that will accomplish the things I need to at the end of the day. K, put in simple, I scared kanna FCUKed!
But I was doubted. I was doubted for doing wrongs for some confidential stuffs, stuffs that had already been double confirmed by the higher authority. I was questioned, questioned with questions with no answers, questioned with questions like, "Could the higher authority do wrongly?", or "could you and the higher authority make mistakes?" I was thinking bout what are the model answers that I can come out with when I was bombared. "Yes, the higher authority make mistakes." and "Yes, I have some consipacy with the higher authority after they treat me a cuppa at Fullerton Hotel." Crazy! I was so frustrated that I thought its a hassle to talk back. I replied, "Well, you can doubt me in terms of characters, but please don't doubt me in terms of work."
I'm not mad with him, cause I know his characters. He just wanna get things right. He just wanna doubled, tripled confirmed with the stuffs. But I just don't like to be doubted. To be questioned by him when I'm 99.9% sure I'm right. To be nagged by him about things that I don't think is within my power of limits / my job scope.
And to put in simple, this kind of thing won't happened if it was the real me. I would be happily clearing his doubts. I would patiently answering all his queries. Perhaps, I would even do things that are not within my job scope. Afterall, I used to be a BusyBody... Afterall, I used to score 'A's in industrial attachments and projects....
ShawnTay - Blued
I lost my temper couple of times, or should I said countless of times in camp these days. I don't blame ppl for venting my anger, but I'm frustrated with the way I'm dealing with the situations. I self-praised that my own character might not be a good one, but at least I know I'm one responsible dumDass that will accomplish the things I need to at the end of the day. K, put in simple, I scared kanna FCUKed!
But I was doubted. I was doubted for doing wrongs for some confidential stuffs, stuffs that had already been double confirmed by the higher authority. I was questioned, questioned with questions with no answers, questioned with questions like, "Could the higher authority do wrongly?", or "could you and the higher authority make mistakes?" I was thinking bout what are the model answers that I can come out with when I was bombared. "Yes, the higher authority make mistakes." and "Yes, I have some consipacy with the higher authority after they treat me a cuppa at Fullerton Hotel." Crazy! I was so frustrated that I thought its a hassle to talk back. I replied, "Well, you can doubt me in terms of characters, but please don't doubt me in terms of work."
I'm not mad with him, cause I know his characters. He just wanna get things right. He just wanna doubled, tripled confirmed with the stuffs. But I just don't like to be doubted. To be questioned by him when I'm 99.9% sure I'm right. To be nagged by him about things that I don't think is within my power of limits / my job scope.
And to put in simple, this kind of thing won't happened if it was the real me. I would be happily clearing his doubts. I would patiently answering all his queries. Perhaps, I would even do things that are not within my job scope. Afterall, I used to be a BusyBody... Afterall, I used to score 'A's in industrial attachments and projects....
ShawnTay - Blued
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