MooD SwinG

Remembering those YEP days whereby joyjoy got sad, I will "bring" her to the playground to play her "mood swing", while I have fun with the see saw... Time flies, and yet, the idea of meeting her up is always words without actions... To add on, I'm feeling real blue for the week, esp today, that perhaps having a great time at the playround might do me some good...

泪水就像断的线的珍珠一样从我的眼中落下。。。

I used to have dreams. Dreamt about being a reporter or a doctor since my secondary years, only to discover that I can't achieved either of them after I failed my English paper during the 'O's... The five distinctions I got doesn't seems to help... I can't do JC, esp the killer GP... So to get at least something close to my dreams, choosing the Biotechnology course in NP followed by studies in Aussie seems to be a good alternative... I did my poly tour, and proud of it till now... But the three years in poly changed my mindset completely... I don't need a degree in Biological Science. I want a business. I want more money then a basic pay. I need recognition instead of publishing my name in journals.

So I thought studying Business in a local uni seems to be a good choice. On one hand, I can make my parents feel happier with a paper in three years time, for the decision I made to give up biology. On the other hand, I would have the basic foundation to start my own business and have the time during my undergrad years, to learn more about coffee, desserts, and cafes.

The tragic thing is... I haven't received the letter from the local uni, while most of my friends with good grades got in... A buddy of mine scored few points lower then me, yet he got in, and I didn't... And it was his fourth choice...

So I went back to my parents, and asked them for permission to let me go overseas to study business, only to get a response saying that, "Yes, I can, provided I take up Biological Sciences again." I said, "I would I like to, but I don't think is worthwhile, since I know in the future, I won't hop onto a science career..." And their response is... no no no... Then I suggested taking a part time degree, only to get more negative responses from them that they are so dissappointed that their son can't get into a normal university...

I'm dumbfounded, I'm lost. Wonder where my future lies? And to add more negatives thoughts into it, I'm ORDing soon... *Sigh*

ShawnTay - Pondering real hard... Some people are too indecisive to think about their future, some people are too lazy to plan it... I decided and planned it out, but, I have my restrictions...