Frustrated or Angry? I'm havingYEP blues...

I'm having my blues due to the stoopig back pain... I think I really gonna downgrade again... My back is killing me... I'm surviving on painkillers... Smsed Vincent and found out that he's downgrading too... I miss him, and definetely life back in STC...

Agrhhh... I hate my life, just as flashes of memories flashed back to the days in Bintan... I guessed I have forget everything about Bintan, the villagers, the school, homestays, dogs, firefiles... everything else but not Irin.. He smsed me again this morning... I do miss him, just like I miss poly life... Even Angela is back on my mind again... But I just don't want to go back... I know I have to stop all the connections with him... But I do love him as a brother... He's affecting my life...

Was talking or rather should I say agruing, or even quarrelling with MeiHua this morning... Is a simple conflict about angry or frustrated!! I'm sorry to make her cry, but I still don't see the point that I am wrong (I just don't wanna admit!!)... Anyway, we managed to cool down and came to a conclusion to settle Irene's birthday present and celebration... Sorry, Hua!!! A hug for you...

Got a surprise sms from Eugene today... He's still in camp, got activated... We chatted about girls, army, life, everything... Army makes both of us sick... Making our lives unbalanced and imbecile... Guess what, there's still 570 days to go... His fate with girls is just the same as me... Not desperate but lonely... Not horny but boredom... Sometimes, it just hurts deep inside our hearts to see the girls we loved to be in love with another... But deep from my heart, I sincerely blessed you with happiness, bliss and laughters... We are just a lonely pair waiting to for the one to invade our life, infect it with love... Best wishes for you, dude...